Update on fundraiser album

Hi everyone,

I have presents for you today – nice long teasers from the final, mastered studio recordings for the fundraiser EP, to be released this spring. Proceeds, after my costs, will all go to the Pancreatic Cancer Action Network.

The title for the four-song album is All The Way.  I wrote the title track the day after I learned that my husband’s pancreatic cancer had not been cured by surgery as we had hoped. When I heard the news that it had returned and was at stage iv, that he had 6 to 11 months to live, all I could think was that I didn’t want him to go through this alone. I wanted to be fully there for him. I needed him to know how dedicated I was to supporting him, being there for him, “all the way.”

First, from the title track, “All The Way.” This song also reflects my struggle to hold on to the good things in our life — our love, the beauty of the yellow maple leaves in the sunlight, being with my soulmate — while knowing that I would lose him soon. Ultimately, we don’t know how long we have with those we love, so we need to be with them “right now.” In this song, I share that “right now will be enough, enough for our love.” Writing and singing “All The Way” gave me reassurance that we could get through this tragedy together and live fully, experiencing joy as well as sorrow.

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Next,   “Where The Water Meets the Land,” a song I wrote in November, thinking about how Scott lived his life and how I wanted to live mine.

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I am so glad that Scott responded to the chemo that kept him alive for months. He and I planned this fundraiser EP several months before he died. Now, nearly six months after he continued on his journey of enlightenment, I feel as connected to him as ever, and I am so excited to see the project taking shape. Thank you for your support. I couldn’t do this without you.


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Progress to date:

– Recorded the songs on Dec. 17 in Beth Kille‘s studio

– Mixed the recordings with Beth during the week of Christmas

– Tracks mastered by Michael Mood

The album artwork is in the planning stage.

I also connected with a CD duplicator who offered to support the project by including free promotional posters with the order.

Moving forward, I will post more about the album artwork. . .

For now, peace and light,





Just me and the guitar

Today I was telling a friend about plans for the EP benefit recording. I explained that it would be a solo effort, just me and my guitar. She said, “Oh good, I like it better that way.”

Confused, I confirmed that I had heard her correctly. That’s what she said. And here I had been lamenting that was not able to pull together other musicians to accompany me on the album.

As I registered her acceptance, her approval, her appreciation of my creation as I play my guitar and sing, relief and gratitude filled me. Her simple statement helped me see that I would be enough. I could be enough. Me and my guitar could more than adequately express what I want to share. Rather than an acceptable solution, solo could actually be the preferred way to record the album.

I know that not everyone appreciates solo acoustic guitar and vocals, but, when I go in to the studio to record, I won’t think of the people who don’t appreciate it. I will picture my friend listening to the new EP in the comfort of her home, and I will sing for her and all those like her. Those who will hear the meaning and the feelings in my songs and bring themselves to the music, participating in the moment of creation.

This EP is meant to bring comfort to those who have a loved one with cancer or other terminal illness. It shares my hope, my frustration, my determination. And, finally, my desire to find acceptance and the strength to live fully even when the pain of loss hits so hard.

To prepare for going into the studio, I have been recording demos of the four songs that will be on the EP. Liked this one of “Stay With Me” that I finished a little bit ago. The studio version will sound so much better, but here’s a sneak preview – think of it as a low resolution image, a little pixelated, but you can see what is in the picture. Feel free to post comments and to share with anyone you know who occasionally likes to listen to “just singers and their guitars.”